Last Tuesday is the last day that I spoke to my dad. It is going to be a week that we didn't speak to each other.
If I know that after they inject the medicine into him and he won't wake up , I will talk more and tell him what I want to say to him all this while.
If I know that after that injection he wouldn't wake up , I won't let them to inject that first until my brothers and mum reached and talked to him.
Life is funny sometimes. After a person has left , there's many IF happen on your thinking. But when you think of that , everything is too late to do so. This is a common things that everyone has told and even the TV series has shown. But still this kind of things happen.
Friends are asking me - how are you ? are you okay ? and I answered them - I'm fine.
I'm really fine. It's just that I still not used to the days without my dad. Sometimes I thought that he went out early for work and came home late after I sleep so it is end of the day and I didn't meet him. But when I'm awake , I only realize that it is not he went out early nor came home late , it is the reality that he is really gone to another world.
Now I often think - Where is him now? How is him? What is he doing?
These questions are answered by my own thoughts - He is at another world. He is fine and maybe he is having tea with new friends out there or staying with my grandparents or uncle and aunt.
From now on , I need to grow up more , be more mature , not being a crybaby and stay strong to going through my life with my brothers and mum.
Dad , I won't let you disappoint on me. I never forget the look and voice that cheer happily over my achievement.